Detox & Hair

This weekend is the last weekend with some of my favorite things, like, caffinee (I like to call it sunshine in a cup), wine, artifical sweetners. That really just leave me with decaf coffee, milk, juice, and water to drink. :( Phooey! I start my Lupron injections on Tuesday - 2/day. I guess I go a little nuts this weekend. :)

Today was fun. D and I did a little house hunting. We don't need a new house and we aren't really looking, but to us, it's a fun weekend out. Today we went to a house that was outrageous. It's really dated and needs tons of maitenance, but the house is 8600 sq ft! That's not a typo. It's wild!

So have I ever mentioned that I am growing out my hair? I am going to donate it to Lock of Love, for wigs for children who have lost their hair to chemo. I have been growing it out for over 2 years and it's really long, but I always had the thought to cut it after we have a baby, in the baby's name. It's now long enough to donate, but no baby. It is starting to drive me crazy, but I am not sure if I should just stick it out and wait or just cut it now. I am going to try to hold out as long as I can.

Due Date

Today was my due date from my November pregnancy. I would not have remember it, except that I stupidly put in an Outlook calendar reminder that popped up in my 8 am morning meeting. I just sorta zoned out for the remainder of the meeting. NOTE TO SELF: Next time, don't put anything in your calendar except the next appt.

Polyp news: Polyp to stay for now. Doc considers it too small to worry about and I am to stay on plan unless it grows anymore. The other news from my testing is that I am anemic. Crap. At least it's fixalbe.

Medications are being ordered this week and I'll get to see the first bills on what this will cost. The last two attempts I still had insurance coverage left, but this one is coming out of our pocket. I am fine with it, but I am sure there will be some sticker shock. At least I am lucky enough to work at a company that has such amazing benefits.

Now what

I had my visit with clinic for some pre-IVF work. They did a office hysteroscopy, follical count, sounding, and some blood work.

The blood work is due to all of the work from last year being redone because it has expired. The folical count showed 19 folicals on the right and 17 on the left at the ready.

Hysteroscopy revealed a polyp. :( Under a centimeter, but with my 3 miscarriages, this isn't good news. It may mean that I will have to under go a proceedure to remove it. This may also mean that all of my IVF dates will slip. CRAP!

UCK

Like I said in my last post, I am taking bcp, but man, they are making me nauseous. They switched the type I was taking. It's gotten so bad, I had to run out of a meeting today because I thought I was going to be sick. It's like morning sickness without a pregnancy. It must be the brand or type that is doing it as I have never had this type before.

I got my IVF calendar from my new clinic. They are so organized. They sent me a day by day breakdown of what will be happening from now until October 4, the day I get back my first pregnancy test (provided I can do a fresh cycle). It's also my birthday. Hmmmm, not sure how I feel about that. It could be great, or totally destroy that day for me. Looks like stim meds start on Sep 8, retrieval Sep 19, 3dt on Sep 22 if all goes according to plan give or take a day or two.

I am not looking forward to this like I was last time. The pressure is much greater, my job is harder to work around, I fear having the worst case senario happening - again. This was such an exciting time last time I did this. Now is warped into this kind of nightmare. Lots of dread, dread, dread.

I'm just like my kitty

Ok, so I still suck at keeping this thing updated. Which in this case means that there really isn't too much to report on IVF-wise. I started on bcp, ran through the month's worth, and today my period started. I called the clinic and talked to the coordinator. I am schedule in office hystoroscopy, folic count, and scoping. They will also order all of my meds and plan our my protocol calendar for this cycle. In other words, starting all over.

So kitty has a new name. She was given the name Thistle by the breeder, but that's not the most cuddly name, so her new name is Bitsy. I spoke with the woman who rescued her from the breeder, and found out some really sad information. Bitsy was apparently the perfect little Devon and the breeeder wanted to show her and then breed her for kittens. So when she was old enough (1 yr), she was bred and she lost all of her first babies before they were born. Then when she was 2, she was pregnant again, and gave birth, but all of her babies died within the first 2 days. As soon as I heard this, I wanted to run home and hold her forever. She's just like me, she can't be a mommy. The first 2 years of her life were aweful, and I really hope she is happy with us. We sure do love her.

On a different note, all of that traveling caught up with me. When I got back from NY, I ended up getting a cold. A cold that turned into larengitis. So while I was in Orlando, I had no voice for the big sales conference. My voice took almost a week to come back. That's what I get for pushing myself. I don't have any travel in the forseeable future, which will the IVF protocol looming, that is definately best. :)