melz world

a secret site where I can capture my deepest thoughts about my infertility and other whatnots


Saturday, January 27, 2007

An down and up day

This morning began with a scare. I woke up at 4:27 AM with severe right abdominal pain. I could barely catch my breath. After moving around into a few different position, the pain reduced for a while. I was able to get some sleep the remainer of the night but it still hurt. I woke up for work and was still in some mild pain. I was going into the hospital for my 20 week ultrasound so I figured I would weather it through until 1 PM. I kept thinking in the back of my head that this was appendicitis beause of the location of the pain, but I didn't have a fever or an sickness.

I went in for my 20 week ultrasound. They asked how things were and I said fine with the exceptoin of the pain on my right side. They did a very thorough check to see what was going on. It turns out that even while pregnant, I am still suseptable to my wonderful PCOS symptoms. I was found to have a rather large cyst on my right side that was the size of a lime that was being compressed by the uterus and that is why it hurts constantly.

On the other news of the day, Everything looks normal and we found out the sex. Ready? It's a boy! :) We are so excited! I hope he looks just like my husband with maybe my chin (I have a cute clef chin that is a strong feature on my family's side).

Sunday, January 21, 2007

baby clothes

Ok. I know it's totally early to be buying baby clothes, but we had a great coupon to Gymboree. Since my sister had her baby a few weeks ago, we had a coupon from buying her son's clothes there, so we used it for our little one before it expired. We figured we know enough pregnant people that if something goes terribly wrong with our pregnancy, we can return what we got. In the mean time, sine we don't know the sex just yet, we hopefully bought unisex looking stuff.



I just love their stuff. You can go a little nuts in that store, and I don't want to make that store a habit. :) Otherwise, I'll go broke.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Baby Furniture

I have been searching the web and looking for baby furniture. I think that I have found the set I like. It's so pretty and will work for boys or girls. I love the dark woods and classic shapes.




I was thinking that the pink and brown is pretty like the pictures for a girl. And a tourquise and brown for a boy. I'll find out in 10 days what I'm having as long as the baby is cooperative with the ultrasound!

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Bumps

I am almost 19 weeks, almost 1/2 way to d-day. Since I this is the first pregnancy I have gotten this far, I have to say there are some unexpected sensations that I have experienced. I now have a firm bowling ball sized lump in my lower belly. I don't know why, but I never thought that the bump would be so firm. I used to be morbidly obese with a huge belly that was large and squishy. I just assumed that the belly would be just like that. It's totally not. I can feel the weight tugging and pulling down. I have lost my balance a few times already too. Clumsy me.

I also have now felt the baby kick. I have felt if for the last week. It's a great feeling. It's not regular, but it's there. Tiny little bumps. I can only feel them on the outside, not on the inside. I can even feel them by hand if I keep my hand on my belly. I didn't think that was possible until much much later.

So far, DH and I have done NOTHING to get ready for the baby. We didn't want to do anything in the first trimester, and then there was the holidays, and now here we are. Half way through the pregnancy with not a stitch done! YIKES! We have so much to do. We have to get a contractor to change 3 walls in our house. The baby's room needs to have one wall sound proofed. That wall shares with the master bathroom's shower and toilet. Every time you shower or flush, you can hear it plain as day in the baby's room. I don't want to wake a sleeping baby every time I have to pee in the middle of the night. We need to also sound proof another room that will now become the new guest room. It shares the wall with our master bedroom where the TV is. Downstairs, we need to also expand our pantry. Right now it's super tiny and jammed full. We are going to knock out the built in kitchen desk to make a bigger pantry. I have no idea how long any of this will take. I am hoping no more than 5 weeks once I find someone to do it. The key words being, once I find someone to do it. Then we can start to buy things like crib, changing tables, and rocking chairs. The list of to-dos is huge and we need to get our butts in gear!!! I am such a procrastinator.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Ramblings

First of all, it's been a while since I posted last. So sorry. Part of that was due to the holidays, and the other part is that work, and then finally we were out of power for 6 days. I live in the Seattle area where we had a brutal wind storm right before the holidays and it knocked out our power. It was cold that week too so we were living like cavemen in our livingroom. Fire good!

Over the holiday's I got sick. I am sure I got it while I was flying. Can't they filter the germy air on airplanes? They are such a breading ground for colds and other contagions. I caught something flying out and then returning home. It's too bad our culture in the US doesn't do like the Japanese culure does. When in Japan and you are sick, you wear a surgical maskto prevent sharing your germs. It's good manners.

The real bummer is that I can't really take anything to treat the symptoms. I just have to tough it out. :( The only treatment that I could think of was gargeling with warm salt water for the sore throat. Any other suggestions for cold relief?

I am now 17 and a half weeks pregnant! :) Things are going quite well. I am less tired and gaining weight as I should. I was concerned that I couldn't but so far so good. I still have stress over each day regarding whether or not the baby is alive. So in order to put my nerves at ease, I have rented a fetal monitor to hear the heart beat when I need to. I figure once I feel the baby everyday, I won't be as nervous, but in the mean time, it'll be better for my peace of mind. If I am less stressed, then it's got to be better for my and the baby's health. So it came in the mail today, and I heard it! What a great sound! I feel so blessed.